Last year I had a goal to share more on this before I was ready, and to post more in general.

Well, sometimes the first step is to admit failure. Yup, that did not work last year.

That said, last year was about as far from failure as possible. It the hardest, saddest, proudest, best, most challenging, most rewarding years I can ever remember. We went through great loss and great gain. We went through the hardest things I’ve ever experienced, and the best.

While we were all incredibly happy to bid good-bye to 2019 on New Year’s Eve, it was also a transformative year for our family, and it set us up for a new beginning, a new future, and a new world ahead of us.

What I learned last year was that we are stronger than we ever thought possible. I learned calmness in a storm. I learned how to create peace and stillness among the chaos.

Knowing and learning those things does not make it easy to implement every day and in the face every challenge. It’s what we keep re-learning.

In 2020 I’m focused on balance. Balance between the self and others. Between chaos and stillness. Between new and old. Strength and softness. Yes and no.

There are days that balance will be off, but I’ll keep working toward it each day.